Monday, January 24, 2011

Sometimes you really wonder where has hope gone.
And inside you yearn to be able to see just a glimmer of light.

But darkness engulfs you.
You scramble frantically around; turning your head to search for a way in every possible direction.
No way. No way. There's just no way.
You fall. You weep.
No helping hand offered. You're all alone.

Was that a shimmer you caught a glimpse of at a distance?
How could it be- among this darkness?
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Today had been a moody day. It seemed like a pain to get by although lessons ended really early. Somehow, there's this heavy feeling suppressing my chest area, making it really hard to have this light happy feeling that I used to have. School's been a real obstacle to get by, having not done well in my exams last year made me really nervous about the big As coming up. I seemed to have lost my mind, finding desperate means to understand a concept, brush up on my past topics etc.
My mind has been screaming. It was never once silent since school started. My heart pounds in trepidation; I hallucinate of what may occur. But what could be done to salvage the mess that I've made? Nothing. But only time and effort.

p.s~ sorry JY, dar and JE. I still owe you guys your birthday posts.
Sometimes I wish I wasn't so headstrong and stubborn. I would then have been able to weep out the sorrow of my soul in the secret on my room.

6:23 AM