Sunday, August 8, 2010

How does it feel to be confused? Why do we feel confused? What makes a person confused?
I hate being confused.

I have better things to worry about (e.g. getting promoted at the end of the year :/) yet I'm constantly thinking about the most trival things. Sometimes I wonder if I made the right choice in coming to this school, in choosing this combination. in my choice of CCA, in practically everything. If I could turn back time, I wonder if I would have made the same choices again. Because, everything seemed to have flew past so quickly. One moment, it was the end of Os, the next moment, receiving of results. Before you know it, you get your postings and school starts. You thought you could adapt to the new life, but you realised how much you missed the past. Why is the new life so different? I still feel foreign to it and I guess I'll still remain foreign to it.

Sometimes I really hate myself for being myself. Times where I tried to change but I always failed. I can't help it. Why am I still like this? I know God have created me to be this way and He loves me for who I am. Yet I can't love myself for being myself.
This sucks.

I need time to sort things out. Yet time isn't on my side at all.

Crap. see? I'm starting to think about the trival matters again. Bleh.

8:58 PM