light it up
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Results for Os came out on the 11th Jan, Mon. 3 days have passed since I received my results but it still feels as if I've just received it yesterday.
On Tuesday, I visited NJ with Zhi Jing. To my disappointment, there wasn't really anything showcased there for us to see. My cell friend offered to show us around, but in the end he couldn't make it because he had extended lessons. (Life is seriously tough in JC)
I met Viona and chatted for a while. She was telling me how you could never get lost in NJ because all you have to do is walk one big round and you'll end up in the same place where you started. Viona've changed quite a bit too and she poked me like how she usually does and asked, "sm, where are your apps?" Like sheesh, thanks a lot Viona, you've just reminded me how fat I am yet I'm still going back to my usual sinful habits. (I should totally find a wall and bang my head on it; Sorry Chen!) So, Zhi Jing met 2 of her seniors who have completely different personalities. The former advised her to put NJ as one of her top choices, so as to play safe. The latter, told her not to bother putting NJ as one of her choices. In the end, Zhi Jing was still convinced that NJ will remain as her 9th choice.
After meeting my church friend, we(Zhi Jing and I) ended up shopping at 313. :/
Wednesday, took a trip down to AC and made Sui Kee wait for me at JE MRT. Sorry girl! My bad:/ While her bro was supposed to take us on a tour, we ended up being in a tour with this other Sec 4 guy and his dad. It was wierd cause half the time, it only seemed as though the tour guide was only showing the father son around the campus while we tagged along at the back. I was supposed to go to HC with Zhi Jing in the morning, but I decided to "fly her kite" since I don't stand a high chance of making it there given my score. *sigh*
I'm starting to feel a bit disappointed with my results. I'm sure many would want to slap me now if they knew what kind of results I've got and yet still be disappointed with myself. If you had been reading my previous posts, you can probably gauge what my results are since I'm still here blogging. Don't panic cause my spirit isn't the one typing this post or neither did I jump off the building.
I'm just sad because I know I can't make it to the school I've always wanted to go. During this period I keep asking myself why didn't I work harder and continued with higher MT. Maybe if I weren't so obnoxious or playful during my Sec 2 year, maybe if I had worked harder to improve my Chinese, I could have made it to the school I wanted. I never realise how significant this 2 pathetic points mean to me; until now. I'm sad because I've seen my mum's disappointed face when she tells me that I can make it anywhere if I had that 2 HMT bonus point. I'm sad that I can never follow my sister's foot steps, to go to one of the most prestigious schools in Singapore and study there. I guess I'll always be stuck in the slightly above average kind of school and hopefully when I get into University(I hope I can make it there in the first place), I won't be getting in the just average kind of course.
Look on the bright side, at least I won't have to worry about getting too much "constructive" feedbacks from the HCI guys there. No offence to the HCI guys, (I think they're really good at giving good feedbacks and not to mention, being good at their studies), I think they talked a lil' bit too much? I still remembered how much I wanted to stangle this fella during SC AAR because he simply could not stop talking and my legs were cramming really badly. I believe the people from Alpha Coy share my sentiments as well. Of course, I would still love to make it to that school and experience what it means to study in an elite school where people will simply be awed by the fact that you came from that ELITE school. But I can only dream about it, or at least, not worry about being whacked by any HCI guy that happens to be reading this post now(what is the probability that one might be reading? - NONE :D), because I'm not even putting it as one of my choices. But I should still be cautious when I walk on the streets. Haha.
But wherever I'm posted to, I believe God has made plans and He still wants me to be a light for Him. I should just trust in Him totally.
On Tuesday, I visited NJ with Zhi Jing. To my disappointment, there wasn't really anything showcased there for us to see. My cell friend offered to show us around, but in the end he couldn't make it because he had extended lessons. (Life is seriously tough in JC)
I met Viona and chatted for a while. She was telling me how you could never get lost in NJ because all you have to do is walk one big round and you'll end up in the same place where you started. Viona've changed quite a bit too and she poked me like how she usually does and asked, "sm, where are your apps?" Like sheesh, thanks a lot Viona, you've just reminded me how fat I am yet I'm still going back to my usual sinful habits. (I should totally find a wall and bang my head on it; Sorry Chen!) So, Zhi Jing met 2 of her seniors who have completely different personalities. The former advised her to put NJ as one of her top choices, so as to play safe. The latter, told her not to bother putting NJ as one of her choices. In the end, Zhi Jing was still convinced that NJ will remain as her 9th choice.
After meeting my church friend, we(Zhi Jing and I) ended up shopping at 313. :/
Wednesday, took a trip down to AC and made Sui Kee wait for me at JE MRT. Sorry girl! My bad:/ While her bro was supposed to take us on a tour, we ended up being in a tour with this other Sec 4 guy and his dad. It was wierd cause half the time, it only seemed as though the tour guide was only showing the father son around the campus while we tagged along at the back. I was supposed to go to HC with Zhi Jing in the morning, but I decided to "fly her kite" since I don't stand a high chance of making it there given my score. *sigh*
I'm starting to feel a bit disappointed with my results. I'm sure many would want to slap me now if they knew what kind of results I've got and yet still be disappointed with myself. If you had been reading my previous posts, you can probably gauge what my results are since I'm still here blogging. Don't panic cause my spirit isn't the one typing this post or neither did I jump off the building.
I'm just sad because I know I can't make it to the school I've always wanted to go. During this period I keep asking myself why didn't I work harder and continued with higher MT. Maybe if I weren't so obnoxious or playful during my Sec 2 year, maybe if I had worked harder to improve my Chinese, I could have made it to the school I wanted. I never realise how significant this 2 pathetic points mean to me; until now. I'm sad because I've seen my mum's disappointed face when she tells me that I can make it anywhere if I had that 2 HMT bonus point. I'm sad that I can never follow my sister's foot steps, to go to one of the most prestigious schools in Singapore and study there. I guess I'll always be stuck in the slightly above average kind of school and hopefully when I get into University(I hope I can make it there in the first place), I won't be getting in the just average kind of course.
Look on the bright side, at least I won't have to worry about getting too much "constructive" feedbacks from the HCI guys there. No offence to the HCI guys, (I think they're really good at giving good feedbacks and not to mention, being good at their studies), I think they talked a lil' bit too much? I still remembered how much I wanted to stangle this fella during SC AAR because he simply could not stop talking and my legs were cramming really badly. I believe the people from Alpha Coy share my sentiments as well. Of course, I would still love to make it to that school and experience what it means to study in an elite school where people will simply be awed by the fact that you came from that ELITE school. But I can only dream about it, or at least, not worry about being whacked by any HCI guy that happens to be reading this post now(what is the probability that one might be reading? - NONE :D), because I'm not even putting it as one of my choices. But I should still be cautious when I walk on the streets. Haha.
But wherever I'm posted to, I believe God has made plans and He still wants me to be a light for Him. I should just trust in Him totally.
7:03 AM