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Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Thank you God for giving me more than I've asked for. :)
I'm gonna walk and skip around my new school in my super dull grey colour uniform and promise to NEVER NEVER NEVER turn into a MUGGER! LA LA LA. Crap. I think I'm going crazy. I'm going to call KIMMY everyday to make sure I stay sane and drop by for Taiwan sausages at Chih-Yin's house if I get a chance. HAHAHA.
Almost died waiting for that stupid message to come. I seemed to have some biological alarm clock that woke me up at 7 even without the shrill alarm of my phone. I tossed and turn in bed, refusing to check my phone for the postings. Alas, I decided that it was now or LATER. So I reached for my phone. The messages that came were from Chen Ting, and where to meet for today's cycling trip. I got kinda disappointed. Unknowingly I reached for my itouch to check fb; saw many people who had received their postings already. Kim told me that the 6 pointers usually gets it first but it was nearly 8 already by the time I was done checking fb. Still no sign of that stupid sms. Kim was nice to ring up and help me check my postings online. It turned out that I got into my first choice after all. And guess what? The message only came at 8.19. I think if I had waited till then, I would have been in the emergency ward in the hospital by now.
National Junior College (science)
Here I come :)
I'm gonna walk and skip around my new school in my super dull grey colour uniform and promise to NEVER NEVER NEVER turn into a MUGGER! LA LA LA. Crap. I think I'm going crazy. I'm going to call KIMMY everyday to make sure I stay sane and drop by for Taiwan sausages at Chih-Yin's house if I get a chance. HAHAHA.
Almost died waiting for that stupid message to come. I seemed to have some biological alarm clock that woke me up at 7 even without the shrill alarm of my phone. I tossed and turn in bed, refusing to check my phone for the postings. Alas, I decided that it was now or LATER. So I reached for my phone. The messages that came were from Chen Ting, and where to meet for today's cycling trip. I got kinda disappointed. Unknowingly I reached for my itouch to check fb; saw many people who had received their postings already. Kim told me that the 6 pointers usually gets it first but it was nearly 8 already by the time I was done checking fb. Still no sign of that stupid sms. Kim was nice to ring up and help me check my postings online. It turned out that I got into my first choice after all. And guess what? The message only came at 8.19. I think if I had waited till then, I would have been in the emergency ward in the hospital by now.
National Junior College (science)
Here I come :)
8:43 PM
Thursday, January 14, 2010
I've submitted my application. Like so finally. My mum dragged me out of bed at 9am so that I could get it done. On top of that, she's been really cranky. And not to mention, CRAZY.
I didn't know choosing JCs were such tough decisions to make. So many factors to consider, so many "research" to be done before the final decision is made. I'm kind of jealous of those people whose parents have had some form of higher education and hence would be able to give them some guide or tip or two of which JC and what course to choose. My parents, unfortunately, didn't receive a very high level of education. Hence, all my mum could say was, "choose what you want." And of course, in addition to a few comments that hinted that the top 5 JCs would oviously be better. My Dad? He told me to try out for Shuqun, which is located just opposite my house, so that I can wake up at a later time before heading to school. Just FYI, Shuqun is FOR SECONDARY SCHOOL KIDS. I must have looked like someone who had failed O-levels to him. I can't blame him though. Being in his sixties, he's old enough to be my grandfather already. Maybe I should stop addressing him as Pa, and call him Ah Gong instead. Maybe it's time he "wake up his idea already".
Anyway, my heart still has lots of resentment when I submitted my application though. I can't believe I put the school that I didn't really want to get into as my first choice. But I can't help it though, since S'pore is a place that scrutinises your academic records. I'm just pissed at myself for not being able to compete with my sister. AGAIN. She's always in a better school than me. Since Secondary school to JC. Even though the age gap between me and her is relatively huge, I still secretly hope that my studies can be as good or even better than her. In another way, it means that she cannot laugh at me for doing worst than her in my studies. Ok, so she's beaten me at PSLE, but we were equal for our O-levels score. Since she took HMT, which means she's got 9-4 and I only had 7 - 2. But since she made it to a better school, in other words, she has once again beaten me at the Os. Bleh.
I'M GONNA MUG LIKE CRAZY AND DO WELL FOR As!!!!
To the school which has entirely grey coloured uniform, please take me into your science stream! It's just a friggin 1 point difference. I'll go there and mug like crazy. (I sound like some total asshole here) I WILL MUG!
- It's not like any of the people there will be reading this though-
It's heartening to know that about half of the tofus are applying for the same JC. I'm not worried about making in to that JC, but it's just that I want a better one. Furthermore, I don't really like the idea of having swimming as their P.E lessons. Do you guys remember this?
Wherever she may be,
Part of Delta 09' will she be.
I hope it'll stand throughout our lives. I can't wait to see the time when we'll all get married and have our own kids. (I think I'm thinking way too far...) By that time, our conversation topics may have switched from the usual gossips about NC, to ideal bfs, to complains about bfs, to complains about husbands and finally the wierd things our kids does. BUT I WON'T LOSE MY BET NO MATTER WHAT LYS! You'll see. :D
I was reading through my testimonial again and I was struck by the last paragraph by which Mr Loh wrote. This is what was written:
Shu Mei is a gracious young lady who possesses maturity beyond her age and excels in self-supervision and self-improvement. She has potential to succeed in all her future endeavours.
Ok, go ahead and have a good laugh. I bet you peeps reading this now would be thinking that something is seriously wrong with my form teacher. This lame, bimbo-wannabe person called KSM actually possesses maturity beyond her age? This is simply hilarious. Whatever~ I guess this is a standard way most teachers would end their testimonial so that it will give an overall good conclusion of the student.
I'm kinda interested to read what is written for someone's else testimonial. Seriously, the language used is really POWERFUL. Tofus, if you have the time and are willing to share, please post up your testimonials at part blog. TYVM.
I didn't know choosing JCs were such tough decisions to make. So many factors to consider, so many "research" to be done before the final decision is made. I'm kind of jealous of those people whose parents have had some form of higher education and hence would be able to give them some guide or tip or two of which JC and what course to choose. My parents, unfortunately, didn't receive a very high level of education. Hence, all my mum could say was, "choose what you want." And of course, in addition to a few comments that hinted that the top 5 JCs would oviously be better. My Dad? He told me to try out for Shuqun, which is located just opposite my house, so that I can wake up at a later time before heading to school. Just FYI, Shuqun is FOR SECONDARY SCHOOL KIDS. I must have looked like someone who had failed O-levels to him. I can't blame him though. Being in his sixties, he's old enough to be my grandfather already. Maybe I should stop addressing him as Pa, and call him Ah Gong instead. Maybe it's time he "wake up his idea already".
Anyway, my heart still has lots of resentment when I submitted my application though. I can't believe I put the school that I didn't really want to get into as my first choice. But I can't help it though, since S'pore is a place that scrutinises your academic records. I'm just pissed at myself for not being able to compete with my sister. AGAIN. She's always in a better school than me. Since Secondary school to JC. Even though the age gap between me and her is relatively huge, I still secretly hope that my studies can be as good or even better than her. In another way, it means that she cannot laugh at me for doing worst than her in my studies. Ok, so she's beaten me at PSLE, but we were equal for our O-levels score. Since she took HMT, which means she's got 9-4 and I only had 7 - 2. But since she made it to a better school, in other words, she has once again beaten me at the Os. Bleh.
I'M GONNA MUG LIKE CRAZY AND DO WELL FOR As!!!!
To the school which has entirely grey coloured uniform, please take me into your science stream! It's just a friggin 1 point difference. I'll go there and mug like crazy. (I sound like some total asshole here) I WILL MUG!
- It's not like any of the people there will be reading this though-
It's heartening to know that about half of the tofus are applying for the same JC. I'm not worried about making in to that JC, but it's just that I want a better one. Furthermore, I don't really like the idea of having swimming as their P.E lessons. Do you guys remember this?
Wherever she may be,
Part of Delta 09' will she be.
I hope it'll stand throughout our lives. I can't wait to see the time when we'll all get married and have our own kids. (I think I'm thinking way too far...) By that time, our conversation topics may have switched from the usual gossips about NC, to ideal bfs, to complains about bfs, to complains about husbands and finally the wierd things our kids does. BUT I WON'T LOSE MY BET NO MATTER WHAT LYS! You'll see. :D
I was reading through my testimonial again and I was struck by the last paragraph by which Mr Loh wrote. This is what was written:
Shu Mei is a gracious young lady who possesses maturity beyond her age and excels in self-supervision and self-improvement. She has potential to succeed in all her future endeavours.
Ok, go ahead and have a good laugh. I bet you peeps reading this now would be thinking that something is seriously wrong with my form teacher. This lame, bimbo-wannabe person called KSM actually possesses maturity beyond her age? This is simply hilarious. Whatever~ I guess this is a standard way most teachers would end their testimonial so that it will give an overall good conclusion of the student.
I'm kinda interested to read what is written for someone's else testimonial. Seriously, the language used is really POWERFUL. Tofus, if you have the time and are willing to share, please post up your testimonials at part blog. TYVM.
9:48 PM
Results for Os came out on the 11th Jan, Mon. 3 days have passed since I received my results but it still feels as if I've just received it yesterday.
On Tuesday, I visited NJ with Zhi Jing. To my disappointment, there wasn't really anything showcased there for us to see. My cell friend offered to show us around, but in the end he couldn't make it because he had extended lessons. (Life is seriously tough in JC)
I met Viona and chatted for a while. She was telling me how you could never get lost in NJ because all you have to do is walk one big round and you'll end up in the same place where you started. Viona've changed quite a bit too and she poked me like how she usually does and asked, "sm, where are your apps?" Like sheesh, thanks a lot Viona, you've just reminded me how fat I am yet I'm still going back to my usual sinful habits. (I should totally find a wall and bang my head on it; Sorry Chen!) So, Zhi Jing met 2 of her seniors who have completely different personalities. The former advised her to put NJ as one of her top choices, so as to play safe. The latter, told her not to bother putting NJ as one of her choices. In the end, Zhi Jing was still convinced that NJ will remain as her 9th choice.
After meeting my church friend, we(Zhi Jing and I) ended up shopping at 313. :/
Wednesday, took a trip down to AC and made Sui Kee wait for me at JE MRT. Sorry girl! My bad:/ While her bro was supposed to take us on a tour, we ended up being in a tour with this other Sec 4 guy and his dad. It was wierd cause half the time, it only seemed as though the tour guide was only showing the father son around the campus while we tagged along at the back. I was supposed to go to HC with Zhi Jing in the morning, but I decided to "fly her kite" since I don't stand a high chance of making it there given my score. *sigh*
I'm starting to feel a bit disappointed with my results. I'm sure many would want to slap me now if they knew what kind of results I've got and yet still be disappointed with myself. If you had been reading my previous posts, you can probably gauge what my results are since I'm still here blogging. Don't panic cause my spirit isn't the one typing this post or neither did I jump off the building.
I'm just sad because I know I can't make it to the school I've always wanted to go. During this period I keep asking myself why didn't I work harder and continued with higher MT. Maybe if I weren't so obnoxious or playful during my Sec 2 year, maybe if I had worked harder to improve my Chinese, I could have made it to the school I wanted. I never realise how significant this 2 pathetic points mean to me; until now. I'm sad because I've seen my mum's disappointed face when she tells me that I can make it anywhere if I had that 2 HMT bonus point. I'm sad that I can never follow my sister's foot steps, to go to one of the most prestigious schools in Singapore and study there. I guess I'll always be stuck in the slightly above average kind of school and hopefully when I get into University(I hope I can make it there in the first place), I won't be getting in the just average kind of course.
Look on the bright side, at least I won't have to worry about getting too much "constructive" feedbacks from the HCI guys there. No offence to the HCI guys, (I think they're really good at giving good feedbacks and not to mention, being good at their studies), I think they talked a lil' bit too much? I still remembered how much I wanted to stangle this fella during SC AAR because he simply could not stop talking and my legs were cramming really badly. I believe the people from Alpha Coy share my sentiments as well. Of course, I would still love to make it to that school and experience what it means to study in an elite school where people will simply be awed by the fact that you came from that ELITE school. But I can only dream about it, or at least, not worry about being whacked by any HCI guy that happens to be reading this post now(what is the probability that one might be reading? - NONE :D), because I'm not even putting it as one of my choices. But I should still be cautious when I walk on the streets. Haha.
But wherever I'm posted to, I believe God has made plans and He still wants me to be a light for Him. I should just trust in Him totally.
On Tuesday, I visited NJ with Zhi Jing. To my disappointment, there wasn't really anything showcased there for us to see. My cell friend offered to show us around, but in the end he couldn't make it because he had extended lessons. (Life is seriously tough in JC)
I met Viona and chatted for a while. She was telling me how you could never get lost in NJ because all you have to do is walk one big round and you'll end up in the same place where you started. Viona've changed quite a bit too and she poked me like how she usually does and asked, "sm, where are your apps?" Like sheesh, thanks a lot Viona, you've just reminded me how fat I am yet I'm still going back to my usual sinful habits. (I should totally find a wall and bang my head on it; Sorry Chen!) So, Zhi Jing met 2 of her seniors who have completely different personalities. The former advised her to put NJ as one of her top choices, so as to play safe. The latter, told her not to bother putting NJ as one of her choices. In the end, Zhi Jing was still convinced that NJ will remain as her 9th choice.
After meeting my church friend, we(Zhi Jing and I) ended up shopping at 313. :/
Wednesday, took a trip down to AC and made Sui Kee wait for me at JE MRT. Sorry girl! My bad:/ While her bro was supposed to take us on a tour, we ended up being in a tour with this other Sec 4 guy and his dad. It was wierd cause half the time, it only seemed as though the tour guide was only showing the father son around the campus while we tagged along at the back. I was supposed to go to HC with Zhi Jing in the morning, but I decided to "fly her kite" since I don't stand a high chance of making it there given my score. *sigh*
I'm starting to feel a bit disappointed with my results. I'm sure many would want to slap me now if they knew what kind of results I've got and yet still be disappointed with myself. If you had been reading my previous posts, you can probably gauge what my results are since I'm still here blogging. Don't panic cause my spirit isn't the one typing this post or neither did I jump off the building.
I'm just sad because I know I can't make it to the school I've always wanted to go. During this period I keep asking myself why didn't I work harder and continued with higher MT. Maybe if I weren't so obnoxious or playful during my Sec 2 year, maybe if I had worked harder to improve my Chinese, I could have made it to the school I wanted. I never realise how significant this 2 pathetic points mean to me; until now. I'm sad because I've seen my mum's disappointed face when she tells me that I can make it anywhere if I had that 2 HMT bonus point. I'm sad that I can never follow my sister's foot steps, to go to one of the most prestigious schools in Singapore and study there. I guess I'll always be stuck in the slightly above average kind of school and hopefully when I get into University(I hope I can make it there in the first place), I won't be getting in the just average kind of course.
Look on the bright side, at least I won't have to worry about getting too much "constructive" feedbacks from the HCI guys there. No offence to the HCI guys, (I think they're really good at giving good feedbacks and not to mention, being good at their studies), I think they talked a lil' bit too much? I still remembered how much I wanted to stangle this fella during SC AAR because he simply could not stop talking and my legs were cramming really badly. I believe the people from Alpha Coy share my sentiments as well. Of course, I would still love to make it to that school and experience what it means to study in an elite school where people will simply be awed by the fact that you came from that ELITE school. But I can only dream about it, or at least, not worry about being whacked by any HCI guy that happens to be reading this post now(what is the probability that one might be reading? - NONE :D), because I'm not even putting it as one of my choices. But I should still be cautious when I walk on the streets. Haha.
But wherever I'm posted to, I believe God has made plans and He still wants me to be a light for Him. I should just trust in Him totally.
7:03 AM
Monday, January 11, 2010
Too many things happened recently and I don't even know whether I can take some time to reflect on what has happened before new events start coming in.
Maybe, I should just pen down whatever's on my mind now before I forget about it- again.
2009 came and went really fast. Many times I felt dejected or even at times pressured by the things happening around me. One of those events that made me cry? That fateful day on 090409. I guessed that most of us cried because we hated to part with whatever we had experienced in this CCA. All that we had gone through, all that we had worked hard for. I believethat if all of these hadn't meant so much to us, it would have been just another stepping down from the CCA kinda event.
Then came the Chinese Os in June. I feel as though I'm totally not prepared for it. Came up with a crappish storyline during the actual exams, and played a guessing game with the answers I wasn't sure off. I believe it's God's grace that I managed to scrap my distictions for the subject which I can't even speak properly in. Haha.
Mid-years came rolling in at the last week of June holidays, after which Prelims started to kick in. I managed to stay maintain an L1R5 of below 20 for my mids, even though I wasn't really doing very well in it. Prelims came much faster then I had expected, didn't study much as usual but scraped a 14 for my L1R5. I'm shocked because I thought I would have easily flunk it.
Then teachers tried to "wake me up when September ends" because the big Os were starting in October already, I felt that I sunk deeper into my "slacking mood" instead and even though many times I reminded myself to keep studying, I didn't achieve my aim at the end of the day. And I can't really say that I did put in my heart and soul into the exams. Maybe I did, but I don't realise it and I keep thinking that I haven't done enough. Still, it's by God's grace that I can do way better than what I've expected for Os.
I really want to thank God for what He's done in my life. For what He has given to me. He's truly awesome, giving me more than what I've expected and more than what I've asked for. I want to say that all these would not have been possible without God, without His guidance and His peace within me. I want to continue to trust in Him forever more. I want to make my life a testimony that God is faithful and God is always good. :D
Maybe, I should just pen down whatever's on my mind now before I forget about it- again.
2009 came and went really fast. Many times I felt dejected or even at times pressured by the things happening around me. One of those events that made me cry? That fateful day on 090409. I guessed that most of us cried because we hated to part with whatever we had experienced in this CCA. All that we had gone through, all that we had worked hard for. I believethat if all of these hadn't meant so much to us, it would have been just another stepping down from the CCA kinda event.
Then came the Chinese Os in June. I feel as though I'm totally not prepared for it. Came up with a crappish storyline during the actual exams, and played a guessing game with the answers I wasn't sure off. I believe it's God's grace that I managed to scrap my distictions for the subject which I can't even speak properly in. Haha.
Mid-years came rolling in at the last week of June holidays, after which Prelims started to kick in. I managed to stay maintain an L1R5 of below 20 for my mids, even though I wasn't really doing very well in it. Prelims came much faster then I had expected, didn't study much as usual but scraped a 14 for my L1R5. I'm shocked because I thought I would have easily flunk it.
Then teachers tried to "wake me up when September ends" because the big Os were starting in October already, I felt that I sunk deeper into my "slacking mood" instead and even though many times I reminded myself to keep studying, I didn't achieve my aim at the end of the day. And I can't really say that I did put in my heart and soul into the exams. Maybe I did, but I don't realise it and I keep thinking that I haven't done enough. Still, it's by God's grace that I can do way better than what I've expected for Os.
I really want to thank God for what He's done in my life. For what He has given to me. He's truly awesome, giving me more than what I've expected and more than what I've asked for. I want to say that all these would not have been possible without God, without His guidance and His peace within me. I want to continue to trust in Him forever more. I want to make my life a testimony that God is faithful and God is always good. :D
6:45 AM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YEE SHAN!!!I wanted to post the super nice picture of you at grad night but I realised that the photo was at my other com. So, I guess all these will have to do.
Having known you for 4 years now, (gosh time seems to fly so quickly) I realised that you have a very interesting personality. You give others an impression that you're someone who isn't supposed to be mess with, yet you let loose in front of people whom your comfortable with. You're 17 now! (oh no, so old already!) And I still love you and you shall forever be my Dar! Don't you ever dare to forget me! If not I'll pester you like no one's business. Haha. Have a sweet sweet time on your special day :D
6:31 AM
Sunday, January 3, 2010
HAPPY SWEET 16 SOPHY TIO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Finally you have reach the magic number 16! This means that you can finally watch NC 16 movies now! Woohoo. And for goodness sake woman, you've grown up. Stop being so lame!!! And I guess I don't really praise you that often but since I'm such a nice person I shall say something nice to you. I think you're very hip person. Even though you're younger than me but your dress sense is way more BOOMS than mine. So ya, keep it up girl but don't bother trying to change my dress sense to be like yours. HAHAs. Stay strong and cool woman, AND never lose that kickass smile of yours :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WU JIA YUE!!!!!
I can hear you saying "OMG" when you see these pictures. Yep, having known you for almost 6 years already, I think I've seen how much you've changed as well. Even though most of your comments to me are actually insults, I still love you woman because you've played a major role in my life. Thanks for being a big sister to me and without you, I think my primary school life(and of course my secondary school life) wouldn't have been so fun and enjoyable. I love you and continue to be the forever-kid-at-heart type of person I know.
I know you both love green, so I've dedicated this post to you too in GREEN. :)
6:27 AM